penguindownunder asked: How long do you have to or plan to live with your family?
well, to be perfectly blunt. I probably would have left a week after UncleDucey’s funeral. that didn’t happen though. everyone else is dying instead. I vowed to help my family through the cancer. We’ve been through chemo and radiation and a long list of really gross at-home medical procedures and so many emergency room visits and surgeries. and he isn’t better because he will never be better. He’s strong enough to go to doctor’s appointments, and on a few short outings a month, he can make snacks for himself but, mostly all he can do is sit on the couch and watch TV, which is what he enjoys, so that’s good. I guess. He won’t go home. I tried. I offered to move to that town. It doesn’t make sense anymore though because now he has different insurance so he can go to the hospital 2 minutes away. the hospital is an hour and a half away from his house. And my grandmother that lived in that same town, and that I wanted to be closer to, is dead. so, it’s all pointless. This has been going on for over two years. no one thought that it would be this long. All my dollars have been eaten by a storage unit, I couldn’t leave right now unless I literally walked away. I feel like I’m becoming toxic to the situation, two years ago when I was feeling very similarly, talking to my mom, I said “I don’t know if I’m a help to this situation, Murble and I are constantly fighting about the medical stuff. maybe it would be better if I left.” she said. ” you are helping. you will stay and help.” a few weeks ago I was talking to her again she said “none of us thought it would go on this long. what are your plans for leaving?”
so end of June. maybe? that covers obligations that I’ve agreed to with my family and might be enough time to build up some savings for a fresh start.
I don’t know how I could ever leave Jazz though.